Thursday, October 05, 2006
School was awkward, but i had loads of fun in class. Andrea and i were harmonising and singing away to the song ' back at one' by brain mcknight. Hee, and i'm officially not a confused soul anymore. Taking long walks really helps to clear your mind and to point you in the right direction.
Met up with nigel to collect some physics paper today. And it somehow eased all my fears of liking him again. I've realised that what we used to share was the past, and we're just friends right now. That chemistry and love we once shared was lost. No racing heart beat, no wishing that we were still together, and of it all, no crying. The relationship between us is now purely friendship. Instead, there's another whom i feel strongly for now. And i'm absolutely certain that he's not just another substitute for nigel. Though now's not the time to do all of these stuff, i can't help but feel really bad about not confirming my feelings first. Funny how seeing nigel again can make me realise so many things. That i've been paranoid for nothing and that what happened between us is totally inevitable, and it's only a matter of time before the breakup will occur. All i can do now is to move on, and just keep the wonderful memories that we once shared. No regrets or whatsoever.
It feels really good right now. Its as though the storm has passed, and the sun's shining brightly down on me. And i'm not an emo kid anymore okay! .. LOL! That's what andrea has always been saying about me lately. Hurmphs! .. hahaha
::3:23 pm
